february 06, 2014 - illusions of self motion

holding still. steadied yet the rotation persists, persists. static but stuck in the continuum. i am building in my half sleep, half conscious, half rational. a formation of what, is uncertain. an invisible vessel for an invisible fire, an invisible sea. it is tedium replacing trauma. a circular momentum eclipsing hidden conflict. a constant motion sickness. i am wobbly with sea legs. this mal de débarquement. disoriented by the tetris effect.

"to recognize reality as a form of illusion and illusion as a form of reality is equally necessary and equally useless."

-fernando pessoa